Why Weekend Self Sabotage Is ‘A Thing’ (And What To Do About It) (Outweigh)

<p>OUTWEIGH: For the first (near) 30 years of my life, my relationship with food had 2 'modes'.</p> <p> </p> <p>✔️ On</p> <p>-OR- </p> <p>❌ Off</p> <p> </p> <p>There was no middle ground for me.  I was either walking around day-in, day-out as: </p> <p> </p> <p>👮‍♀️ My Inner Food Police: 🚨</p> <p> </p> <p>Micromanaging every morsel of food I ate or thought about eating. Controlling myself, restricting myself, punishing myself, and persuading myself not to eat certain things because they were "bad" or "not healthy". Obsession. Harsh judgments. All that shame, blame, guilt, comparison, and perfectionism... </p> <p> </p> <p>-OR-</p> <p> </p> <p>🍨 🍕My Inner Rebel (See also: Inner Glutton!) 🍩🍔</p> <p> </p> <p>Carefree abandonment – eating whatever I could get my hands on. Gluttonously over-stuffing myself.  Binging on the weekends. Utter lack of care of my body, what I ate, how I moved, and my health in general. But also feeling like I had to "get it all in" over the weekend before I went back into "Police" mode on Monday.  </p> <p> </p> <p>And THIS was my life for nearly 30 years!</p> <p> </p> <p>Bouncing from one extreme to the other:  I would diet and restrict until I couldn’t possibly take it anymore, and then....I would TOTALLY let myself go.</p> <p> </p> <p>But the day came that I hit my 'enough is enough' point, and I realized that if I didn't change my STRATEGY and change the STORIES around food and my body that were keeping me stuck, this is how it would ALWAYS be!</p> <p> </p> <p>And that scared the crap out of me, and THAT is when I knew I had to set out to change it. </p> <p> </p> <p>Because...</p> <p> </p> <p>★ I was SICK of all the dieting and restricting and constantly playing 'food police'.</p> <p>★ I was SICK of all the judging and shaming and EMOTION that came alongside food.</p> <p>★ I was SICK of hating what I had to DO, who I had to BE, and how I had to FEEL to get the "body I always wanted". </p> <p> </p> <p>It was EXHAUSTING. And I was the OPPOSITE of FREE. </p> <