S4, Ep 394: Blame and Law of Attraction

<p>The interview starts with a celebration of the dedication Vicki has made to herself and her Future Self over the past 5 years. </p> <p><br></p> <p>Cassie asks, what did that dedication look like for you?</p> <p><br></p> <p>Vicki shares,</p> <ul> <li><p>Consistency and showing up even when I didn&#39;t want to. 20 minutes a day, 5 days a week, showing up. Not only that, I showed up the rest of every day the way I wanted to.</p> </li> </ul> <p><br></p> <p>Cassie asks What did using the law of attraction look like for you 5-6 years ago?</p> <p><br></p> <p>Vicki shares,</p> <ul> <li><p>Lots of “To-Do’s”</p> </li> <ul> <li><p>Mantras</p> </li> <li><p>Vision boards</p> </li> <li><p>Journaling</p> </li> <li><p>Specifics</p> </li> <li><p>Meditating</p> </li> <li><p>Stress</p> </li> <li><p>Self-blame</p> <p><br></p> </li> </ul> </ul> <p>Cassie asks: you used to struggle with depression in the past. How much of that do you think came from the forcing of “good” feelings and forcing all of your “to-do’s”?</p> <p><br></p> <p>Vicki shares</p> <ul> <li><p>Because I was pushing so much of the “good” feelings, I was pushing away the sadness and anger that would come up throughout my life. Then the bubble would burst, and I would have to feel ALL of those big “bad” feelings all at once. That would take me down, totally incapacitated. I would allow the big, sad feelings to take over my life for however long it was. A week, a month, whatever it was. It affected every aspect of my life for that period of time. Because I hadn’t been allowing myself to feel them - those little doses throughout my life, I’d just push them down. Then they’d come out like one big ugly monster.</p> </li> <li><p>When you feel it all the time, it doesn’t grow into a monster. When you push it down, it gains momentum and power to become this huge monster. Rather than just feeling it in those smaller, more frequent doses and not giving it the juice to become that big monster.</p> </li> </ul> <p>Cassie asks Vicki if she used to do a lot of