S1, Ep. 13 | Abundance in Relationships

<p><span style="font-weight: 400;">I am the last person I would ever ask for relationship advice. I’ve been codependent most of my life and been engaged to men that lied to me and betrayed me. I’ve been in relationships with ones that needed to be taken care of or are just down-right angry at the world. </span></p> <p><span style="font-weight: 400;">At one point, my lack of self-love allowed me to look at these relationships as fulfilling, because if you are co-dependent - the relationship is filling a hole, a hole you don’t want to look at, so the reward of the unhealthy relationship is that it keeps you distracted from identifying the cause of the hole you just keep digging yourself into deeper and deeper. </span></p> <p><span style="font-weight: 400;">Now - I broke that cycle in my life, using the tool of the 10 month Universal Hermetic Ray Kabbalah program. It took me 4 trips up the tree of life to really learn fully how to love myself in such a way as I could break the pattern that kept putting me in a position of co-dependency and enabling of others not worthy of my time, energy, love and money. </span></p> <p><span style="font-weight: 400;">Then I spent more time working on myself before I could reach a place to admit I was ready to try an actual fulfilling relationship. To admit that I actually wanted a real, fulfilling relationship. </span></p> <p><span style="font-weight: 400;">And thanks to good friends, my own personal practice with the Runes and Tarot, meditation and ritual I was able to hear the universe tell me to go back out into the world a fulfilled & whole human being and pull in someone who I enjoy being with.  Not to complete me, but to be a partner in life to co-create experience with and work together on a mission of lightwork to make this world a better place. </span></p> <p><span style="font-weight: 400;">The change in me was that I was being honest with myself and no longer trying to fill a hole with a person. I am complete unto myself. I am whole and love myself. No other is going to ch