Morgan Day Cecil - Separating 'Self' from Shame through the Subconscious

<p><strong>*TRIGGER WARNING*</strong> This episode contains brief conversation on rape and sexual trauma. </p> <p>Morgan likes radical honesty. She asks, "A<span style= "font-size: 12pt;">re you living the</span> <strong><span style= "font-size: 12pt;">epic life</span></strong> <span style= "font-size: 12pt;">of the woman</span> <strong><span style= "font-size: 12pt;">you were</span></strong> <strong><span style= "font-size: 12pt;"><em>created</em></span></strong> <strong><span style="font-size: 12pt;">to be?</span></strong> <span style="font-size: 12pt;">...Or are you living the too-small life of the woman you were</span> <strong><span style= "font-size: 12pt;"><em>conditioned</em></span></strong> <strong><span style="font-size: 12pt;">to be?</span></strong><span style="font-size: 12pt;">"</span></p> <p class="p1">Without the language to process, she embodied a rape at 15 and took on the story “you are bad” which rooted itself in her psyche.</p> <p class="p1"><strong>“Shame is not my identity. It is not who I am.”</strong></p> <p class="p1">The roots of shame grew branches and trunks in the form of beliefs that Morgan said dictated, <em>“who I am and what’s possible as a woman and that’s what I had to get to the root of and free myself from.”</em></p> <p class="p1">It manifested as:</p> <ul> <li class="p1">Chronic Depression</li> <li class="p1">No desire to move</li> <li class="p1">To motivation for her life</li> <li class="p1">Overwhelmed with exhaustion</li> </ul> <p class="p1">…just <em>thinking</em> about being the woman of her dreams sent her into lethargy (<em>I’ll just sleep until I die</em>!) - it was too overwhelming to make the leap from chronic depression to a free woman.</p> <p class="p1">The truth is: we store so much of our wounds in our body and getting free from that was a “homecoming” to her body. That is why she has such an interest in the concept of <em>embodiment.</em></p> <p class="p1">The old belief was that she was bad and her body was a part of the problem. But if her body was a part of t