#233; The self-sabotage demon/Perfectionism: NOT a badge of honour/Shifting Beliefs/what about alcohol?/ Marci Nevin

<p>IMPATIENCE</p> <p>PERFECTIONISM</p> <p>FIXATING ON STRUGGLES because our wins were never enough</p> <p>Hit a point where what you know you SHOULD do is also against what you THINK you should do</p> <p>So doing less, eating more is scary so you keep sabotaging yourself on your way there</p> <p>__</p> <p>Being afraid to lose your leanness</p> <p>Especially if you had a history of being over weight &amp; not being confident and trying hard to get there (mostly doing dumbshit)</p> <p>Sense of control that you can finally wear whatever you want and you didnt want to go back to it</p> <p>Scared to let go of control</p> <p>That the identity and perception of self is centered around there</p> <p>Fear of success -</p> <p>Oh no, now what…</p> <p>Mum making comments</p> <p>Anyone else judging other people</p> <p>Thoughts are not truths</p> <p>Feelings are not facts</p> <p>We may feel they are because we shape those around our upbringing and old beliefs</p> <p>But it takes alot of work to break those beliefs</p> <p>When your cognitive load is very high and you have all these thoughts in your brain you have little room for logic to happen</p> <p>This is why will power and discipline &amp; motivation fall through</p> <p>You need to act as if and write as with and truly belief it and visualise it and then act in that way -</p> <p><strong>Patience</strong></p> <p><strong>Overeating, self soothing, perfectionist &amp; avoiding emotions</strong></p> <p>Over analysing</p> <p>Wont take action at all</p> <p>If you are not taking action because you don't think youre going to be perfect then you arent even putting yourself up there to go out there</p> <p>How is that serving you if you arent allowing yourself</p> <p>Quell unsettling emotions</p> <p>You have a problem with yourself but wont do anything about it</p> <p>Now you have guilt and shame</p> <p>Now it leaks into other</p> <p>Alcohol</p> <p>Path of least resistance - not face it and</p> <p>1- celebrate wins - its your evidence for when you are doing well</p> <p>Its showing you